Last weekend was very windy so we ran a few errands, but otherwise stayed indoors. By Tuesday I was going a little stir crazy and decided to go to the breastfeeding support group through the hospital. I really wanted to find out what else I could do to make more milk. A harsh reality fell upon me that nothing else in the medical field could help me bring in or make more milk. With this news from the lactation consultants, I went over to my OB's office where I was told the same thing and was also told to stop taking the Reglan as it is a depressant and they don't want new moms on it for more than two weeks. Now I really was depressed, and feeling a whole new mix of emotions. I felt defeated, disappointed, and a general sense of loss and a lack of connectivity to Anna. I still get a little sad over that last part. I try to remind myself that there are many more ways we will be able to connect as she grows.
Susan arrived on Wednesday as did my first listing. Both were exciting and we all went out to Jose Muldoon's for dinner to celebrate. Thursday was very busy trying to get my work done (the first real day of work it seems) and I was grateful to have an extra set of hands at home. I felt guilty about how good it felt to get out of the house and take care of things, but didn't feel guilty about leaving Anna behind. Strange. Later that afternoon I went on my first walk/hike in long time and we were out for a little over an hour. It felt good and I'm looking forward to getting out more as the weather gets nicer. Jon took Friday off and we went to Garden of the Gods, Manitou Springs, and the new Costco. It was so gorgeous outside we grilled out steaks for dinner. Saturday was another busy but fun day of hiking out at Red Rock Canyon.
On Friday and Saturday the weather was great and we picniced our lunches both days. (picture was taken at Garden of the Gods, Scotsman Picnic Area)Anna, you have been getting into a bad habit of being a fussy-butt at night and a princess during the day. I would ideally like you to be a princess around the clock. That's my vote. Your dad and I have been debating about getting a co-sleeper aka "The bread box", but we have made no moves toward the door to actually buy it. It is a little box that we would put in between us in our bed. You lay in it and you are right there. The pros: You would be right there when you start to fuss, and we wouldn't have to get out of bed to fetch you. The cons: You would be in our bed. You would be blocking us from "talking". You may think our bed is your bed and we will never get you out of it. I would literally be around you 24-7 WHICH don't get me wrong, I love you, but I also need grown-up time and just me time. I wouldn't be able to be a good mommy to you without it.
Photo of the week:
Wisconsin Badger "Jump Around" onesie. The Story: During the 3rd quarter at the Badger games, the song Jump Around by House of Pain is played. The entire student section jumps around. Years ago, it was determined by some engineers that the critcal frequency was at its height during the jumping around. This is a potentially dangerous thing as the structure of the stadium could falter. Nonetheless, the student governing board passed a resolution to allow this to continue after the administration had banned it at one game. Speaking of Badger gear...you received a new Badger onesie from Aunt Linnea and Uncle Ben. It is super cute!
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